It's only monday and i felt i had worked for a week. Woke up with slight puffy eyes, and i think it's due to my contacts.. i cant wear them too often for too long.. seems that my eye infection did not recover fuilly somehow.. so.. i was kinda dazed out with my tired eyes the whole day.. and by afternoon i'm already dying to go home.. but unfortunately, i knew i couldnt go home any sooner.. not at my usual 6 pm at least.. when my collegue and i finally get down to work on the huge pile of proposals , everyone was going home.. All i can do is to endure and aim to leave at 8.. At the end of the day, i left office (having done 2 proposals only) with my neck and back aching, eyes smaller than usual and brain half-functioning.. i swear it's going to be HELL tml, because bozz says we gotta finish at noon... =(

Sometimes i think i am too tired to give a damn. But i realised no, i wasnt too tired to heck, i was just trying to heck. In fact, trying so hard that i became tired. Sometimes you are there, but most of the time you are not. And i guess justifications always work for you, and against me. Do whatever you like, I shall longer care. Cos' shall i do, i will only bring more pain to myself. I wish I can say goodbye just like that. Slowly, i will be able to. Just like how you did.

I'm not upset. Just numbed.